HEARTS ON PARADE

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

for the past few weeks, i've been sitting with 411 dur recess, not 269 anymore. i enjoy my recess with 411. they crap, gossip , buy food for one another, treating each other drinks. Sitting with 269, i felt that i got no common topic to relate with them, they treat me as though i'm invisible, and being a joker, i still haf to portray a very happy and joyful image. frankly speaking, i only talk to eunice, jingyi, meifong and elvina. when u guys finish ur food, u all jus walk away, leaving me with the girls, and i seriously dun like the feeling of being pangseh. arrgh.

everytime dur recess, i'll go over to 4f. wait for everybody to be present then move to the canteen. i dun mind waiting. but what makes me so disappointed is the fact that you guys [ i mean 269] wunt wait for me. not once or twice, but countless times. you all jus go without me, and only the girls will wait. 4 yrs of friendship and this is what i get? i really duno what to say.
rmb:
- the days where we will gangbang one another?
- the times where we all will squeeze in one table despite theres no space?
- the aft recess 'go shit' trips?
- kok peng showing off his da-ge-da?
- samuel and his hualala F.Ts ?
- vincent treating us drinks?
- chun ann's bao pi songs?
.. all these euphoric times?

i guess all these are history alrd.
and on hind sight, i think we need to scrutinize our actions and words.

and to kok peng:
we were once the best of friends, we talk on wadever shit topic we can think of, gg cycling tgt, u staying over for no gd reason, fighting for food, playing wrestling on my bed. . . and so much more.
but aft that quarrel, we didnt talk anymore. not even a word. . . till today.
i miss those days and i really really wish we could somehow be friends again?

tumbling
11:59 pm